Meditation; a game changer.

You’re talking to the girl who wouldn’t take yoga class because she’d burst out laughing during savasana – the meditative, still, yoga posture that always ends a session – out of the pure discomfort of being still.

The girl who would rather be doing burpees or mountainclimbers or deadlifting than rest day or yoga/stretch day.

It’s become clear however, that I’m not coming out the other side of Lyme the same girl I went in as.

Never would I have thought that I’d be paying money to sit with a group of people while

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Who taught you not to love yourself?

The following is quoted from Inga Muscio’s book, “Cunt”, in her interview with Soraya Mire, a Somali woman who also produced the film, “Fire Eyes”.

“In countries like mine, the law is blatantly against women. What we do have, though, is love and community. You never think only of yourself, you always think of your neighbors and family, too.
The problem with a lot of Western women is they think they can help me, that they know what’s best for me. Especially feminist women. They come into conversations waving the American flag, forever projecting the idea they are more intelligent than i am. I’ve learned that American women look at women like me to hid from their own pain. They can’t face their pain, and mine is so obvious, they think they can help me without looking at

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Man up and spread some love

Today’s society seems to have some sort of ideation that they cannot show love to another person before it is shown to them first. And furthermore that they don’t want to show more love to a person than they are receiving from said person. No one can communicate without ego or fear anymore and I think it’s absolutely pathetic.

I try to always ask myself, “if this person were to die before I spoke to them next, what would I want them to know?” And this helps me say the things that I feel need to be said. No one can read your mind, no one knows if or how much you care about them unless you share that with them somehow. This does not have to be in words of course but it does have to be in a form that the other person understands. My main understanding is through words and that’s why I use that example.

My very good lyme friend suffered a massive unexpected heart attack last week and if her husband hadn’t been there to do CPR she would not have survived. In an instant she would have been gone and would she have known how much I love and appreciate her?

My mom was in a car accident last weekend. Everyone was ok, but it could have been much worse. Would she have known how grateful I am for her or how lost I know I’d be without her?

Lyme can unexpectedly stop your heart in an instant, lyme carditis, and although I don’t expect that that will happen to me I suppose no one expects it until it happens… have you told me everything you want me to know?

Our society is so scared of vulnerability that saying a simple thing like I love you and I am grateful to have you in my life is paralyzing for some people. I have distanced from some friendships because they simply cannot say these things and I don’t understand how someone could let their fear and cowardliness get in the way of what could be a wonderful, loving, supportive friendship or relationship.

What is so scary about spreading love and making sure your loved ones know that they are loved and appreciated?

If someone in your life was in an unexpected accident and died tonight, what would you wish you had told them?